Lingered;Silence gets a website!

I'm so proud to declare that this blog has grown over the years.  It is filled with memories, both bad and good, and also the sour ones. It started small but I believed in those years back, I would come back here and write out my life however way I spend my time in the real world. Right now, this blog has captured some bittersweet memories of my life in words if not pictures.

    I had thought of getting a website of my own for a long time and blogspot has hooked me because of it's simplicity and also because it's free. I learned how to make things look a little bit more beautiful but God knows I'm not a very good stylist. At most, I can just alter the theme to my liking as you can see with the blog. But then I learned how to do things as I go along.

    Now, I don't want to post a lot of stuff. It's morning and I am not a morning person. Seeing as how the blog has grown, I've decided to give it a full website. I had a lot of time to choose my hosting site, my domain name and the price that goes with it. I've decided to go with Arvixe, as it's like one of the hosting sites that I can pay monthly instead of yearly, or two yearly as I don't really like to pay a huge sum of money at the first turn. As of now, every month I would have to pay around $7 or RM25 for the hosting site. The longer the duration of your service for single payment, the lower the rate goes. I would only have to pay $3.5 or RM12 - RM 15 if I would pa for a yearly duration but it all amounts up to $96 or RM300. So, that kind of money would save me for the long run but for now, I would just like to mess around with the site first.

    On the other hand, the host also gives me unlimited space, bandwidth and also a free domain for life as long as my subscription is renewed. So, I guess that gives me the best value for each dollar I give them. Also, they give a lot of options too. I decided to go with Joomla! not only because its what supervisor has told me to study about but based on the review I read, Joomla requires a bit of development knowledge and more customization than Wordpress. I think that suits me the best.

    So, there you go. This blog will still be here but for now, the official site will be

lingeredsilence.com

   As of now, it's still in development (nothing posted yet, I'm still tweaking with the settings) but in the future I hope I can make it beautiful and a place where a lot of people can read my work and offer me comments and criticism. 

    Oh yeah. Anything produced in that site, or by me, will now be called a Lingered;Silence Production. I doubt that there's anyone else with that name but hey, if you do, just tell me and I could change it to something else.

    Also, I've been thinking about a logo for the website and also for me. I know for Silence that it has something to do with papers and serenity but for me? I don't know.

    This isn't a story but just a notification.

    I've been looking at recording software available out there.  I've been trying to get information on which one is the best, if it's free and have good quality, even better. Some applications, such as FRAPS and D3D, have a trial account but very limited to it's functions.  FRAPS trial can only record for 30 seconds and I haven't dare to try D3D yet because of the huge download size. So far, the one that I can take into consideration is OBS, Open Broadcaster Software.

    OBS sounds like a streaming software, for things like Twitch I would guess? But it has a recording option, and so far it has worked good. But I haven't try it yet in a real gaming environment. OBS is open source, meaning the source codes are available to anyone for any customization. But OBS is also of mediocre quality, meaning the interface is good, the output file is good, everything seems to be in order. A lot of people seems to use it, some professionals use it too.

    I'm just typing this down here so that in the future, if my older self ever try to take up this thing again, he would know that OBS had been his first choice.

    I'm trying to record something, something simple to begin with (it can even record the monitor, for example) but I want try it on a heavy gaming environment like FFXIV so that I can know if my laptop can handle it.

    Even if it's just i7 3rd gen, with GT635m, not even GT680 or something, I think my laptop can record it.  The one that I'm worried about is compiling.  I've tried once before. The compilation took well over 2 hours for a video of some ~100MB size.

    

It isn't about doing something all over again that makes it boring.

It's the feeling that you have done it again successfully where you think you're going to fail again.

I get jealous when I see people hanging out with lots of people around them, their faces smiling with friends surrounding. Happy faces enjoying the day, their social life so full of life and happiness.

Meanwhile, I'm in my room working my ass off to get my Zodiac Zeta. Three more mahatmas and I get it. In Eorzea, I am a Warrior of Light, and also a female. But genders don't really matter ingame as far as look go and in the end, what matters in there is how much you swing your axe, where you hit it, and of course... how you hit it.

This is a rant.

Social life is not one of my strongest points. Talking to strangers is never one of my strongest points. Sure, I can answer you if you ask me for directions and I know the way but if you expect me to take pictures of a friend's gathering, hanging out together in social places, you're going to be sorely disappointed. There are times when I feel I should change this, but then talking isn't just one of my strength. 

Some people I know, hell a lot of people I know, not necessarily acquiantance or friends, they are easily likable by the masses. They are an attraction by themselves. If you hold a party or some sort of plan, that guy has to be there or the whole thing feels unfinished and not merry. I envy these people because they are talkative, smart, friendly and overall a very comfortable person to be with. 

And of course they are people like me. Other people avoid me. They'd rather not go out of their way to interact with me because of unknown reasons. Some obvious ones are actually quite, well, obvious. I don't talk much. I answer either yes or no. I rarely bring up any personal stuff like, what did you eat yesterday or what are you going to do in the holidays. When I do, it feels too awkward for me and the person and I just stop. Sure, I can hold a conversation about say, studies, some stuff that the person and I find interesting together or say, you want to talk to me about this project. I can do that, no problem. But beyond that professional barrier, I'm as talkative as a tree.

But being this person and looking at the opposite side of my own attributes, I can see that some of us are just meant to be the merry man and some are just meant to sit there and be quiet. Because deep down, I know that I have a lot of weaknesses and my strengths aren't what you would call something that you can pinpoint the first moment you see me. They are people out there that if you meet once, you feel happy with him or her because they keep you being merry and they are people who you need to get to know very well in order to see what he's really like. 

I'm sure that each of us turn out like what we are not just because of our upbringing, some people had advantages talking to more important people to boost their self-esteem, but also because we are who we are. We are meant to be like this, and if you can't hold a conversation too long or you are just too shy becoming someone you like to be, that is because we are who we are. Self-esteem aside, shy people has got enough confidence to be in conversation but our answers will be short and to the point. 

If you ask me what I did yesterday, I would say the usual stuff. Exactly those words, yes.

If you ask some of my merry acquaintance, expect to add a friend to your friend list.

What I want to say is, I've been in a lot of groups, both offline and online, and although some members of the groups are people who would brighten up the day, there are those who sit in the middle and prefer to be quiet.

We aren't shy. We are just quiet.