Humans..
They start of as weak creatures
Trying their all to be the best
Worked their shit off just to be on top
Endured all the pain to be known
Everything they did back then was for power and fame
But when the got what they want
People tend to forget where they came from
They would rule the weak
Take what's not theirs
Exploit what they want
Destroy what doesn't pleases them
Everything in the name of power and fame
But little do people know
That life is like a wheel
They start off at the bottom
And managed to climb to the top
But remember that there are ups and downs of life
One day, you will fall down
You will be at the bottom of the wheel again
And when you hurt so many others around you
Don't expect them to lend you a hand to get back up again
Don't expect them to sympathize what you had been through
Don't think you will be able to get back up there easily again
That's life
Every little thing we do will be remembered
When you're good to others
You'll be remembered as a hero
When you hurt others
You will be remembered as a villain
So live live life,
Making yourself happy
And making others happy
Apr 29, 2012
Apr 26, 2012
I didn't know shitless
what I was doing there.
Everybody was hellish quite when the interviewer said "Okay, you can begin your discussion."
So, having by far survived a lot of situations like this, I dominantly dominate the whole 5 people group as being the chairman by speaking up first.
And until now, I still can't quite know what I was doing then. Or for that matter, what I was talking about all along.
But all in all, I felt.... good.
Being able to speak English in an open manner and get response by par...
Shit, it was more than feeling good.
It was like a locked up gate that I have been DYING to open suddenly BREAKS apart and I was free to roam the grasslands that was behind it.
My god, if I do know what sex feels like, I think it would be the same feeling.
I have a good feeling in this one.
A very good feeling.
Wish me some damned luck. Because, by most, that's the kinda luck that I always get and somehow, made me through a lot of shit.
Everybody was hellish quite when the interviewer said "Okay, you can begin your discussion."
So, having by far survived a lot of situations like this, I dominantly dominate the whole 5 people group as being the chairman by speaking up first.
And until now, I still can't quite know what I was doing then. Or for that matter, what I was talking about all along.
But all in all, I felt.... good.
Being able to speak English in an open manner and get response by par...
Shit, it was more than feeling good.
It was like a locked up gate that I have been DYING to open suddenly BREAKS apart and I was free to roam the grasslands that was behind it.
My god, if I do know what sex feels like, I think it would be the same feeling.
I have a good feeling in this one.
A very good feeling.
Wish me some damned luck. Because, by most, that's the kinda luck that I always get and somehow, made me through a lot of shit.
Apr 23, 2012
Apr 21, 2012
Apr 18, 2012
I'm having too many dreams.
Too many.
From the Bizarre and Just-Ridicilous to the Normal and Life-Alike.
From the moment I close my eyes, to the moment where I open them that I don't know if this another dream or am I really awake.
But I can somehow grasp on some of them. Well ,the ones that I want to grasp, that is.
It felt too real to be good... but then again, why not?
Normally, I would've thought those dreams symbolize what I really want and what I really expect from anything but this time, I think even them can't put a definite word on it.
Too many things that I want to do and so few of ways and there's my parents involved. I can't let them down knowing I'm the first to get out of this home but I don't want to let down on myself too.
There is time to be reckless and there is time for bravery.
I think now is the time to stop thinking.
It's time for Confidence.
From the Bizarre and Just-Ridicilous to the Normal and Life-Alike.
From the moment I close my eyes, to the moment where I open them that I don't know if this another dream or am I really awake.
But I can somehow grasp on some of them. Well ,the ones that I want to grasp, that is.
It felt too real to be good... but then again, why not?
Normally, I would've thought those dreams symbolize what I really want and what I really expect from anything but this time, I think even them can't put a definite word on it.
Too many things that I want to do and so few of ways and there's my parents involved. I can't let them down knowing I'm the first to get out of this home but I don't want to let down on myself too.
There is time to be reckless and there is time for bravery.
I think now is the time to stop thinking.
It's time for Confidence.
Apr 13, 2012
Brain Waves.
There are 4 main types.
Beta.
Alpha.
Theta.
Delta.
From down to top, that's the sequence our brain switches "into gear" every single day of a normal human being.
And I mean everyday and night.
Let's see.
When you feel drowsy and sleepy, you are emitting Theta waves.
When you actually in sleep, a.k.a, REAL sleep, scientifically stage 3 of 4, Delta waves starts to appear.
When you wake up, back to Theta.
When you stand up, take a bath, go to work, etc. you are emitting Beta waves that let you FOCUS.
When you sit down at recess, takes a break, look out the window, drink to clear the throat, Alpha waves are emitted that controls our creativity and relaxation.
And you go home, feeling tired and drowsy again.
The problem with humans, they tend to ignore Theta and Alpha waves. When applied driving, it's like switching from first gear ZOOM into fourth gear SNAP just like that.
That's a no good way to live.
In sleep, though, our brain goes like this.
Theta -> Delta -> Alpha -> Theta -> Delta -> Theta -> Alpha -> Delta -> ...
The space where Alpha appears is when we experience dream... I think.
Because trust me, Alpha produces Dreams.
So, I made myself a guinea.... human and made myself asleep listening to Alpha binaural beats.
Almost all the time, I have a dream that I can remember when I wake up.
Most of them were weird, but I can tell you some of them, I can still remember.
Right just now, I listened to Delta binaural beats and... fell asleep. LIKE A LOG.
The sleep lasted for half an hour but when I wake up, felt like I've been asleep the whole night.
My body was HEAVY and I can't stand up straight, kept feeling like I wanted to just fall.
No dreams.
Although, second try that was minutes ago, felt... strange.
I keep feeling like I was floating.
Above my body.
That's Delta for you.
So, now I feel damn refreshed and.... I think I'll try Delta one more time.
Because damn, this is like walking in a tunnel with only a light as a guidance.
The only thing I'm afraid is either the light would be a blessing of revelation or a flame-thrower.
Beta.
Alpha.
Theta.
Delta.
From down to top, that's the sequence our brain switches "into gear" every single day of a normal human being.
And I mean everyday and night.
Let's see.
When you feel drowsy and sleepy, you are emitting Theta waves.
When you actually in sleep, a.k.a, REAL sleep, scientifically stage 3 of 4, Delta waves starts to appear.
When you wake up, back to Theta.
When you stand up, take a bath, go to work, etc. you are emitting Beta waves that let you FOCUS.
When you sit down at recess, takes a break, look out the window, drink to clear the throat, Alpha waves are emitted that controls our creativity and relaxation.
And you go home, feeling tired and drowsy again.
The problem with humans, they tend to ignore Theta and Alpha waves. When applied driving, it's like switching from first gear ZOOM into fourth gear SNAP just like that.
That's a no good way to live.
In sleep, though, our brain goes like this.
Theta -> Delta -> Alpha -> Theta -> Delta -> Theta -> Alpha -> Delta -> ...
The space where Alpha appears is when we experience dream... I think.
Because trust me, Alpha produces Dreams.
So, I made myself a guinea.... human and made myself asleep listening to Alpha binaural beats.
Almost all the time, I have a dream that I can remember when I wake up.
Most of them were weird, but I can tell you some of them, I can still remember.
Right just now, I listened to Delta binaural beats and... fell asleep. LIKE A LOG.
The sleep lasted for half an hour but when I wake up, felt like I've been asleep the whole night.
My body was HEAVY and I can't stand up straight, kept feeling like I wanted to just fall.
No dreams.
Although, second try that was minutes ago, felt... strange.
I keep feeling like I was floating.
Above my body.
That's Delta for you.
So, now I feel damn refreshed and.... I think I'll try Delta one more time.
Because damn, this is like walking in a tunnel with only a light as a guidance.
The only thing I'm afraid is either the light would be a blessing of revelation or a flame-thrower.
Apr 11, 2012
Really now.
Pity.
Pity that the earthquake happened.
Pity that the inevitable tsunami is going to happen sooner or later.
Pity that thousands of lives is going to be in mortal peril.
Pity that part of our country is going to be in it.
Pity that we have no idea how to counter it.
But most of all, pity that the humans have no idea what this means.
I won't say much.
I won't the word "but" either.
Pity.
That's all we can give for now.
Pity that the earthquake happened.
Pity that the inevitable tsunami is going to happen sooner or later.
Pity that thousands of lives is going to be in mortal peril.
Pity that part of our country is going to be in it.
Pity that we have no idea how to counter it.
But most of all, pity that the humans have no idea what this means.
I won't say much.
I won't the word "but" either.
Pity.
That's all we can give for now.
Apr 10, 2012
Me again.
Yo.
Now, now I don't want you to be mad at me.
But think about this...
If I haven't been there for you, what might have happen?
Of course, it'll be a lot worse.
Anyways, I'm here for nothing.
You see, I have a friend. He's such a good friend. You know, he really works a lot, but at times when I saw him, when we meet each other on the streets, we talk about our lives and whatnot.
But every time he leaves, he makes me wonder... Why is he very hard at work? I mean, it's just work.
He's an important man, yes, but he really gives me the notion that I really have nothing to do.
He has a this quote, you know, every time he make an entrance to me, he points a bony finger at me and say
"Hey, my job is my job. Death is not a curse, Life is not an endurance, Time is Clock, and Humans are just flesh and bones. Me? You just meet me when it's time."
That really creeps me out.
But he's really a good guy, minus the bones and grins and that big weapon he has.
Well, sometimes, i counter him with
"Ah, but Death is a gift, Life is a perseverance, Time is my friend, and Humans are Dreams come true."
Of course, his job is very special because he's the only who can do it.
You know, his name is typical.
Death.
Sometimes, I wonder if he has a Life as another person altogether.
-L.E.G. the Infinity + 1
p.s. I don't really give advice. I just tell them the truth they wanted all along. I think that's why some people hate me. Well, I say let them be. I'm just doing my job.
Apr 9, 2012
Believe
That nothing is impossible. That there is no such thing as no such thing.
But at the same time, if we do put our faith on those phrases, we also contradict the way of our lives meant to be. All of us, I believe, somehow at a point, say these things that we do not need to back down or give up because we can do this thing, because there is no such thing as impossible.
That is merely changing the reality we are facing. Of course, by reality, I mean the way we see the world and such not. Reality is what we see and what we feel, we experience and what we take note of, what we usually say "Oh, there it is," and what we think is the norm of your little life.
Of course, every person has their own reality, or rather versions of their reality, it is not possible to have one definite reality because it is ever changing as life is. Of course, if we say that now, that contradicts the first phrase of this post. So, is there such a thing as no such thing?
The question or rather the answer to that definite wonder is in reality surrounding us. Not to mention our brain. If we go in depth about this, this post will turn into a very long lecture on how people see what they want to see and what they want to experience. It isn't THAT long, of course, but very complicated.
In conclusion, it is our brain that controls these kinds of things. I believe that, I believe this, and the brain takes note, write it down on a piece of paper, and lock it in some closet, handy if it comes to use.
And I believe Yomiko Readman is not fiction.
I believe that Readman-san is somewhere out there, still reading books as we say, and I believe I will find her one way or the other.
So my brain will register that, right? Now, if something else tells me the exact opposite, my brain will automatically open the closet, get the paper out and smack me in the face with it.
What do we say now?
We say, what we believe is not our reality, it is what we will get.
Wishes. Wishes everywhere. If you command your brain to do what you want, to do exactly the way how you want it, why... there is no such thing as no such thing.
Believing is what WE tell our brain to write what, and the way to write it. And WHICH closet it will store in.
It's not that hard really. The hard part is the part where you are holding the key to that closet, instead of your brain holding it, and every time you argue with yourself, the ITCH to open that closet is magnificent.
Faith keeps it in place, of course.
Mind you, I have not said a single religious aspect in this.
This is what YOU want of YOUR life and YOU are the one who decides.
I won't say God made you do this or that, He only gives you options. It's you who makes the decision, and He only anticipates it. Well, He already knows what we are going to choose. But you are the one who will CHOOSE. You don't see when you do evil, some sort of light crashes down on you and lecture you and punish you, do you? You don't see when you not do what's been told to do, and a voice suddenly rings inside your head to force you to do it, do you?
No, I wouldn't think so.
So, I believe Yomiko Readman is real. I want to meet her. I want to befriend her. I want to make her the happiest woman on Earth.
And that, my friend, is how I have lived so lonely and pass on even if every single person laughs at this.
I have been far too different to fit in any group.
Just because I believe something that is not impossible.
But at the same time, if we do put our faith on those phrases, we also contradict the way of our lives meant to be. All of us, I believe, somehow at a point, say these things that we do not need to back down or give up because we can do this thing, because there is no such thing as impossible.
That is merely changing the reality we are facing. Of course, by reality, I mean the way we see the world and such not. Reality is what we see and what we feel, we experience and what we take note of, what we usually say "Oh, there it is," and what we think is the norm of your little life.
Of course, every person has their own reality, or rather versions of their reality, it is not possible to have one definite reality because it is ever changing as life is. Of course, if we say that now, that contradicts the first phrase of this post. So, is there such a thing as no such thing?
The question or rather the answer to that definite wonder is in reality surrounding us. Not to mention our brain. If we go in depth about this, this post will turn into a very long lecture on how people see what they want to see and what they want to experience. It isn't THAT long, of course, but very complicated.
In conclusion, it is our brain that controls these kinds of things. I believe that, I believe this, and the brain takes note, write it down on a piece of paper, and lock it in some closet, handy if it comes to use.
And I believe Yomiko Readman is not fiction.
I believe that Readman-san is somewhere out there, still reading books as we say, and I believe I will find her one way or the other.
So my brain will register that, right? Now, if something else tells me the exact opposite, my brain will automatically open the closet, get the paper out and smack me in the face with it.
What do we say now?
We say, what we believe is not our reality, it is what we will get.
Wishes. Wishes everywhere. If you command your brain to do what you want, to do exactly the way how you want it, why... there is no such thing as no such thing.
Believing is what WE tell our brain to write what, and the way to write it. And WHICH closet it will store in.
It's not that hard really. The hard part is the part where you are holding the key to that closet, instead of your brain holding it, and every time you argue with yourself, the ITCH to open that closet is magnificent.
Faith keeps it in place, of course.
Mind you, I have not said a single religious aspect in this.
This is what YOU want of YOUR life and YOU are the one who decides.
I won't say God made you do this or that, He only gives you options. It's you who makes the decision, and He only anticipates it. Well, He already knows what we are going to choose. But you are the one who will CHOOSE. You don't see when you do evil, some sort of light crashes down on you and lecture you and punish you, do you? You don't see when you not do what's been told to do, and a voice suddenly rings inside your head to force you to do it, do you?
No, I wouldn't think so.
So, I believe Yomiko Readman is real. I want to meet her. I want to befriend her. I want to make her the happiest woman on Earth.
And that, my friend, is how I have lived so lonely and pass on even if every single person laughs at this.
I have been far too different to fit in any group.
Just because I believe something that is not impossible.
Apr 6, 2012
That thing about books.
Is that I can't put an interesting one ever. Or just like that even a not interesting one at all.
Three days.
No, three nights I haven't slept because of a BOOK.
I sleep at 5 am and open my eyes at 1 pm.
DAMMIT, IT'S BACK AGAIN. THIS CURSE UPON ME IS BACK AGAIN.
CURSE YOU WHEEL OF TIMES.
That's HALF the number 4 of the series.
So... 8 and a half book to go.
With this kinda pace I can guarentee you i'll finish by the time I go to college.
BURN YOU, RAND AL'THOR. GO BE MAD WITHOUT DRAGGING ME BEHIND TOO.
Three days.
No, three nights I haven't slept because of a BOOK.
I sleep at 5 am and open my eyes at 1 pm.
DAMMIT, IT'S BACK AGAIN. THIS CURSE UPON ME IS BACK AGAIN.
CURSE YOU WHEEL OF TIMES.
That's HALF the number 4 of the series.
So... 8 and a half book to go.
With this kinda pace I can guarentee you i'll finish by the time I go to college.
BURN YOU, RAND AL'THOR. GO BE MAD WITHOUT DRAGGING ME BEHIND TOO.
Apr 5, 2012
Hmm...
Hmmm....
Uhhuh...
Huh...
Hmm...........
Nope. I can't even come up with a trouble.
See... When you are actually concious of your mind doing things or you yourself feel or do things, you'll probably know what kind of problems and troubles and issues you have.
I guess so.
I can't even think up of ONE single problem or trouble or issue to tell you guys. Seriously.
Oh. I just finished watching the whole Durarara!!! series in one day. And the moral of the story?
Don't just hole yourself up .Talk about your problems to other people. But mostly, you need friends to survive in a city.
But seriously... it's not that I don't have friends or maybe SOMEONE to listen to me but... I don't think they would listen to me at all.
Ack, let's not get sentimental here. Looks like I'm gonna die or depressed or something.
Jokes aside, I think I do need someone to hang out with. Or just, you know, spend some time with.
Me, lonely? Oh bloody hell, you have no idea. I've been lonely since... since I figured out that there's NO ONE out there that's like me. Not bloody one.
But I do believe the part that everyone is born with a soul mate. I'm just not that eager to meet that person. Yet.
Still, I should probably hang out with someone. The problem is the "friends" that I want to hang out with, they're like living on the other side of the planet. Ouch.
And I have been thinking about... people. People I have totally disconnected. I can give you names but they will totally sound stupid. Yes, I admit I regret some of those disconnections but- YES, I admit some of them are of the other gender and- YES, I admit again that maybe they would have thought the same of me.
...Then again.
Uhhuh...
Huh...
Hmm...........
Nope. I can't even come up with a trouble.
See... When you are actually concious of your mind doing things or you yourself feel or do things, you'll probably know what kind of problems and troubles and issues you have.
I guess so.
I can't even think up of ONE single problem or trouble or issue to tell you guys. Seriously.
Oh. I just finished watching the whole Durarara!!! series in one day. And the moral of the story?
Don't just hole yourself up .Talk about your problems to other people. But mostly, you need friends to survive in a city.
But seriously... it's not that I don't have friends or maybe SOMEONE to listen to me but... I don't think they would listen to me at all.
Ack, let's not get sentimental here. Looks like I'm gonna die or depressed or something.
Jokes aside, I think I do need someone to hang out with. Or just, you know, spend some time with.
Me, lonely? Oh bloody hell, you have no idea. I've been lonely since... since I figured out that there's NO ONE out there that's like me. Not bloody one.
But I do believe the part that everyone is born with a soul mate. I'm just not that eager to meet that person. Yet.
Still, I should probably hang out with someone. The problem is the "friends" that I want to hang out with, they're like living on the other side of the planet. Ouch.
And I have been thinking about... people. People I have totally disconnected. I can give you names but they will totally sound stupid. Yes, I admit I regret some of those disconnections but- YES, I admit some of them are of the other gender and- YES, I admit again that maybe they would have thought the same of me.
...Then again.
Apr 3, 2012
Facebook won't load...
The chat won't load...
Hmmmm....
I can't even click notifications.
Hmmm.....
THIS IS A SIGN.
A SIGN FROM... WHO KNOWS WHAT.
Hmmmm....
I can't even click notifications.
Hmmm.....
THIS IS A SIGN.
A SIGN FROM... WHO KNOWS WHAT.
Apr 2, 2012
Too different.
I remember my own past.
Yes, I still do from the moment I can walk.
But then, I thought that I was too different than other people.
For one thing, I can see glimpses or flashes of the future. Although, that's pretty much it. I don't know about the when, where, how, who, or why. And another thing, I can see through people and discover their true nature. But meh, some learning and studying even other people can do that.
Then I died. Then, my Mentor sorta... got me back from Abyss. Don't ask me how, my Mentor is not the kinda guy you would joke about the weather. He jokes about how we die. Then, have a great laugh.
Then he really did die. So, I was to continue on his legacy as L.E.G.
Well, he named himself L.E.G. the Infinity because he wants to be different. Well, me being me, I just add the "+ 1" bit. So, I sorta named HIS legacy instead of a continuation of the Original L.E.G.
By the way, did I tell you, he destroyed the entire future, tried to build it back again but died too early, then it's up to me to continue his work for him.
So... here I am now. Cleaning up his mess.
What a job.
-L.E.G. the Infinity + 1
p.s. I love chocolate milk. I drink them everyday with a bowl of cereal. It's good for the bones.
Besides, it's not like I hate the original one but I kinda like the side-taste to it. Adds something different.
Yes, I still do from the moment I can walk.
But then, I thought that I was too different than other people.
For one thing, I can see glimpses or flashes of the future. Although, that's pretty much it. I don't know about the when, where, how, who, or why. And another thing, I can see through people and discover their true nature. But meh, some learning and studying even other people can do that.
Then I died. Then, my Mentor sorta... got me back from Abyss. Don't ask me how, my Mentor is not the kinda guy you would joke about the weather. He jokes about how we die. Then, have a great laugh.
Then he really did die. So, I was to continue on his legacy as L.E.G.
Well, he named himself L.E.G. the Infinity because he wants to be different. Well, me being me, I just add the "+ 1" bit. So, I sorta named HIS legacy instead of a continuation of the Original L.E.G.
By the way, did I tell you, he destroyed the entire future, tried to build it back again but died too early, then it's up to me to continue his work for him.
So... here I am now. Cleaning up his mess.
What a job.
-L.E.G. the Infinity + 1
p.s. I love chocolate milk. I drink them everyday with a bowl of cereal. It's good for the bones.
Besides, it's not like I hate the original one but I kinda like the side-taste to it. Adds something different.
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