Consider the following.

If you have to choose between a blissful ignorance or a hefty realization, what would you do?

That's quite a way to ask because probably people have asked this before many times.

I won't write much but I have made that choice.

I think it made realize a lot of things, bit by bit, and a lot of things at once.

It isn't what you make yourself choose any decisions, but it's quite another thing together.

What if the choices you have made are actually you trying to make yourself comfortable with yourself.

Quite a way of thinking but once you get used to it, or know it when it's coming, you'll know if you make the right decisions or the wrong ones. And try not to ignore your ego. Because that's what's keeping you alive.